Unimaginable Relief From Emptiness

As I was watching a movie on Father’s Day by myself at night, missing everyone I love — my children and grandchildren who live far away, my partner and love of my life who died five years ago, family and friends that are not in reach — I am profoundly steeped in a myriad of feelings. The depths of loneliness, somehow turned into a feeling of gratitude, hopefulness. Longing becomes an evolution that eventually soothes my soul. I am evolving. As I sit here, I realize that I am not alone. LOVE fills the air I breathe, all my memories, all my future hopes. My heart overflows with love for all those who came before me, for the blessings in my life currently. Even as I sit in darkness. For this moment, I realize that love is an absolute dimension that transcends all time and space; love is the only truth.

There is no difference between my love for my spouse and the love I have for my children and grandchildren, even though I cannot see them at this moment. I can feel all of them. Those living, those that have gone before me, and those yet to come; my hope for future love. So at this moment in time, I see love as non-linear, not set by rules we understand, like gravity, but a time continuum, full of unknowns, lots of space, unmeasurable faith, eternal hope.

Unmeasurable love comforts, heals, transforms. There is nothing more precious or valuable to learn in this life.

No matter what your belief system about the afterlife is, what is undeniable is the love you have in your heart for those who have departed the Earth; for those you care deeply for daily; for those that live in a different part of the world whom you hold heart-space for in your body (even though you are not with them).

What is constant and measurable is the emotion only you know exists in your heart. Notice your connection, the depth of feeling, you are your own science experiment. DO NOT DOUBT YOURSELF.

Love is the one thing we are capable of perceiving that is transcendent. Maybe we should trust that, even if we can’t understand it yet, our soul’s instinct to connect is our greatest form of inspiration for all things — wholeness, creativity, beauty…

There is nothing that gives life more meaning than the purity of love.

About Jean Wolfe Powers, LMFT